Thursday, March 20, 2014

last post

Walked in the door from Houston an hour ago.  My 1st set of 3 month scans (MRI of arm, CT of chest & blood work) came back CLEAN.  Thus, the doc spent all of 5 minutes with me.  Still ... What a relief. 


I have lots of PT yet to go.  My wrist & arm remain a work in progress and I need to remain diligent.
  • I can almost straighten my elbow and make a tight fist. About 90% of the way there.
  • I can bend my elbow up to my shoulder pretty well, and rotate my forearm. Maybe 80%.
  • My middle finger can't stand straight up, but it's better than it was after the January reconstruction and I can type.
  • From a flat hand, I can raise that finger a 1/4 inch off the table.  Same when my hand is in typing position.  Both take every ounce of strength I have -- my whole body tenses up -- and my knuckle gets bright white.  Still, it's a start and when I raise both my middle and ring fingers, there's more movement.  (The hand surgeon attached the middle finger tendon to the ring finger's.)
  • I can bend my wrist back about 1/2 the way of the other hand -- so 50% the range of motion. And I'm strong enough now that I can lift a full glass of water off the table (w/ effort, but still).
  • Also the other way, I can bend my wrist forward about 1/2 the way of my left hand.  When I do, a line of muscle & tendon under the graft turns white -- the graft lets one see the working anatomy really well.  Of course, I never understand that I was going to lose flexibility in that direction, but it's because of the weeks in casts, which caused the flexor tendons to shrink and atrophy, and the scar tissue.
  • The graft isn't quite as "stuck" to the muscle below -- the skin moves a bit.
But the real importance of today -- 6 months + 5 days from the call telling me I had a sarcoma -- is that I feel like I can put this whole lousy six months behind me.  Let's call all the clichés.  I'm going to say that cancer is in the rear view mirror now and go live my life.  Like other bad things that have happened, it's over.  Yes, I have to go back every three months for several more years and yearly forever, but I'm just going to act as if that's a waste of money because they aren't going to find anything -- it's buying peace of mind.  So, I'm not going to post on the blog anymore -- and anyone reading this should say, "That's great!"